More Bad News

I honestly did not think that it was going to be possible for my life to great any more challenging than mourning Jenny's death. However, today I got the results back from a test that was checking to see the condition of my uterus after having had a D&C because the fabulous doctors that did the c-section of Jenny's birth left part of the placenta inside my uterus. What has happened as a result of the D&C is that there is scaring in my uterus that has caused the two walls of my uterus to stick together closing off my uterus. What does all that mean? Well, it means that as of right now, I'm not going to be able to get pregnant again. There is a slight possibility that a doctor will be able to preform a corrective surgery, but as of today there are no guarantees.
The thought of maybe having another baby was the last little bit of hope that I had left. I just don't understand why God continues to try me. I have been faithful, I keep trying to be positive, but now what is there to be positive about? What hope do I have now? The only hope I have now is the hope that I will be put out of my misery soon. Or the hope that maybe I will be around to see the doctors who single-handily destroyed  our family have to take responsibility for what they have done.
I am just so completely empty right now. When will the Lord stop with-holding the rain? Please God let the rain come down and wash all the hurt that continues to happen away. I need a break from this drought. Lord I'm crying out to you to deliver us from this pain! Please get us through this Lord. I'm begging you!